Yuwen's

朋友。友情

2011-01-21T03:28:00.001+08:00

Friendship? Define it.

Personally I had no relationship experience so all I have is my friends. Everyone means something to me, everyone stands a place in my heart, everyone will stand for one another.

But you? You chose to betray our friendship, you chose destroy our reputation, you chose to put words into our mouth, you chose to lie your way through, you chose to act as if nothing happened, you chose to patch things up without telling the truth, and you chose to continue lying to us.

How could you? How naive you're to think that we wouldn't find out? How naive you're to think we will believe what you say? How naive you're to think I(we) can forgive you so easily? How naive you're to think that things will be the same? How naive you're to think that it wouldn't affect us badly? How naive?

Do you think you're really smart to hide it through all of us? Do you think you're the god who have everything in control? Do you think everything is as you've planned? Do you think I(we) will never leave you? Do you ever know how to love yourself? Do you even have brains? Or are you a pea-brain bitch.

I've so much anger and disappointment in you, and I don't care if my words are harsh or I mistaken you, but these are what I know and feel at the moment.

My dearest clique, I'm sorry but meeting you all reminds me of her, she reminds me of all my friends who left me. I dread hanging out because I don't feel like talking about her anymore, but the topic is just there, like a must to talk about her whenever we meet up. A topic to fill each other up with our anger, disappointment, thoughts, and concern towards her.
I'm afraid of festive period because we need to invite her. I don't know how to face this kind of fake person and I don't wish to talk to her. I don't know about you all, but I feel very goddamn awkward with her around.
I still love us, the ten of us of the past, not the ten of us with someone in a horrible mask.
我爱你们。

need to post something.

2010-01-12T00:04:00.002+08:00

Feeling kind of mood-less now.
was irritated by Damien earlier on.
i love him, but he's very irritating sometimes.
poor Daphne gotten fever! her cheekbuns shrinked!!
clothes at kiddypalace OOS .
i miss my happier times.
i am rly financially tight this month, but got so many things i wana get :(
dinner wiv jer&ash tmr might b the only happy thing for the moment.
oh i love my newly painted red nails. hehe. color frm Jiahui.
sometimes wonder why my life is in this manner.
kinda sucked.
kids crying now, makes me frown.
listening to Jam Hsiao (Y)
why am i so timid at times. WHY?
facing all the pictures on my wall, makes me wonder, whats on hold for the future as the past was presented in front of me.
Really burdened cus i cannot control but skip school
wonder who's still reading this redundant blog.
hey, wo zhen de hao xiang ni........... (LYRICS)
wondering when will i die.
my face & lip feels so moistured! Jus finish doing mask. teehee
i wan to buy birkenstock lah...
HAIS
YOU KOU NAN KAI
i wan to buy OPI as well
i also wana buy CNY clothes. FML NO $$
and i dono what kind of clothes i wana buy. TEES&SHORTS AGAIN?
aiya too fat hard to find clothes.
wa i very emo now.
MUST BE JAM HSIAO's SONG LA KNN.
but nice leh. tsk
contradicting i knw.
got a lot of feelings, but for me to knw, not for you to find out.
i think im wasting my time.
fuck la, all emo songs playing.
HAI

i am very sad......................................................... :(

jer's 20th.

2009-12-30T05:46:00.004+08:00

JERLYNN's 20th BDAY ON 21st Oct !!

@ kuishinbo at Greatworld city!

Just another short get together for bday. We mistakenly went to town after this & SAW LEEHOM. HAHAHAHA. beautifulmistake. Jer was damn happy cus he was her "idol" & it was on her bday. but she soon got over it. HAHAHA. anyhoos. If ure reading this jer, MISS YOU PLENTY!!!!

Aug5th Dinner Wiv 14e

2009-12-30T05:18:00.007+08:00

W14E's OUTING IN AUG.

was chatting wiv bingmei & realise i didnt post this out. SORRAYE.

SUMMARY : Met in town for Aston/Ashton @ Cathay for dinner. cheap&goood. (Y). we WALKED to cine for emax for movie if i didnt rmb wrgly. watch Handsome Suit! & then when we were walking to the train station to tke train, we realise it was too late. THEY RAN ALL THE WAY, while i gave up halfway.

OH I RMB. i had no money that day to take cab home & i called my dad to fetch me & he gave me hella scoldings. totally fucked up. than i sat alone outside mrt station emo-ing & crying. HAHAHAHAHA. then luckily my dearest Aaron came to rescue. cabbed to him place & he paid for me & rot ard awhile b4 heading home. totally uncool to hv no money! :(

PY oct bday!

2009-12-30T04:59:00.006+08:00

PEIYING'S 20TH BDAY ON OCT. hehe.

toldya i like to procrastinate & delay my post.

TO SUM IT ALL UP. she injured her leg so we couldnt meet up and celebrate, thus we headed over to her place to surprise her. well, she wasnt that shock becus she knew we would be there. HAHAHA. wellwell, glad that everyone turn up! LOVELOVELOVE.

xmas

2009-12-29T07:00:00.003+08:00

Had a blast this christmas starting from the xmas present ideas, to shopping for it, making of it, and then finally giving it out (: very much thanks to Jacq for sharing pressies for sexys wiv me ( SAVE A HOLE IN MY POCKET ) and Jiahui for acc-ing me get presents for my niece!

Christmas eve was spent wiv SEXYS + Bfs. with damn helpful Ron who provided a place to gather, and mini buffet for us. Rounding up wiv full attendance (Y), PY's video + letters, also, me&Jacq's sticky candies. I THINK WE'RE SO SWEET. hehe. Played quite afew games too, ended the night abruptly bcus jo wanted to talk to her baby at home -.-

Christmas was home in the morning, & slept till noon!(NOT ENOUGH SLEEP). went too woodlands wiv parents+2babies. was so frustrated bcus Damien couldn't stop crying. anyhoos, bcus of his constant cries, we went back home after awhile.

Home and within awhile went to grab stuffs from hougang point & met the bowenkids there.

okay, then bck to my place & then to chiat's place. STEAMBOAT WAS SHIOK. althou it was almost meatless. HAHA. im craving for steamboat alr!!

The xmas was complete wiv me & yingying giving out candy canes + cards. HAHA

Mrs Iszal came wiv her babyboy & a christmas cake wiv us. Aaron also came wiv a logcake & foam can. nabei, kena tricked by him. Also later part of the night, we ate his "cookie" which he baked. ERXIN, got chilli padi inside. he's sucha idiot. okay, the night ended after indian poker which got us RED. okay i was red after a cup of vodka. hahaha. and then vodka ran out & we;ve got nothing to do.

THANKGOD for jiahui&bf for coming to fetch me for supper & homesweethome. & very nice chiahwee treated supper as well. xiexie ah!

The next day Jiahui dated me out to slack & pass me my xmas pressie! FANKYOU VEHLLI MUCH. lub you deepsxz deepsxz.

okay, i shall end this wiv no visuals cus i didnt upload the picture of my xmas pressies into my lappy. NEXT POST OKIE. lovelovelove all.

2009-12-24T05:43:00.003+08:00

MERRRY CHRISTMASS TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!

here's some pic of damien catching the "xmas" moooood! :D:D

wishing everyone the best of everything & have the best fun & joy in this wonderful festive season. its gona be a packed weeeek! WEEEEEEEEE.

2009-12-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

Pictures speaks a thousand words.

points.

2009-12-13T17:17:00.003+08:00

hi sunday sucks at work. i knw ive been saying this, but IT SUCKSZSXZ.

i am seriously bored that i've decided to blog.
I hve no pictures here to blog because im using the shop's computer.
i've been surfing fb, twitter, blogs and all.
i went to watch the powerhouse vid which gera tagged us in.
AND I FEEL LIKE CLUBBING LEH HOW.
but no i cant, i need to save money for xmas. haisxz
last day of school tmr. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE & ITS HOLIDAY!
but sad cus holiday 2weeks + only
I hadnt meet all my friends for quite awhile.
but i feel like being homely and stay at home to disturb the babies.
i haven complete my FYP
FML
i think our team lack of communication
and mayb team spirit or smething.
whatever.
im eating milk chocolate, but it tastes so.... weird?
i feeel like eating, but im not exactly hungry. HOW
i want a lot a lot of MONEY $$$$$$$$$$$$$$
i feel that sometimes im taken for granted.
i dont like to be somebody's gf/bf's spare tyre.
spare tyre meaning = accompanionship only when ur bf/gf is not around you.
i like to be put in priority
it makes me feel so loved.
who doesnt like uh?
sadly im not in any priority list.
OKAY! I FEEL LIKE EATING TAUHUAY NOW.
HOW? ask jiahui ? or ask gwen. Hmm, OR BOTH!
text the later!
you'lknw, sometimes things doesnt appear to how it is,
but people like to misinterpret it.
i dont knw what im typing.
im just typing down whatever comes to my mind
okay, my backside is itchy. AHAHAHA
mayb i shld go for a break now.
OH got a customer say my nails veh nice. TEEHEE.
veh happy cus i did myself instead of a manicurist.
Oh i hate people who hang up on the phone without say bye. SO RUDE. NO MANNERS LEH
walau. fb keep having problem. cant enter.
Gt a auntie customer SO CUTE. the way she talk reminds me of my mom. LOL
IM hungry but donot what to eat.
Gwen is not free for tauhuay latersx
haven text JH yet.
i think if i continue typing this list will end up nowhere. HA
I THINK I SHLD STOP
WAH SIBEI HUNGRY. WILL GO GRAB SOME FOOD.
OKAYBYE! :D

fucked up

2009-12-07T01:02:00.001+08:00

I'm someone who thinks alot, so much so that one of the reason I'm always pekcek-ing would prolly be because of this?

yes! I'm writing again because I'm thinking again. seriously annoys me alot. I gave in so much and never get much in return. you know? just like you feel like you're paying for a feast at a highend reastaurant expecting them to serve you that value of foood you paid, but in the end they give you kopitiam food. this kinda feeling YOU KNOW ?!

fucked up.

this is fucking endless because I always pekcek here and don't say out. omg I'm annoying myself off. I think I'm crazy alr.

signing off,
pekcek_annoying_irritatinggirl89

mom's love.

2009-12-05T03:45:00.001+08:00

A LITTLE STORY TO SHARE :

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, "UUHH, your mom only has one eye!" I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.

So I confronted her that day and said, " If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!"

My mom did not respond...

I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to come to Singapore to study.

Then, I got married. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.

Then one day, my mother came to visit me.

She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!" GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in Singapore.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.

I did not shed a single tear.

They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

"My dearest son, I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to Singapore and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.

But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.

I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.

You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.

As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.

So I gave you mine.

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With my love to you,

Your mother’’.........

doesn't matter

2009-12-02T05:25:00.003+08:00

A LOT of my dear friends has been nagging at me for skipping school. I REALLY DOWAN TO SKIP, BUT YOU GUYS DONT KNOW HOW LEFTOUT I FEEL IN SCHOOL.

Sometimes when i've already prepared for school and going out, i will change my mind and just skip school, i think school is like doomsday for me. im not prepared to be in school. im not prepared to face all the shits in school. im not skipping school because im too-tired-to-go.

IM SKIPPING SCHOOL BECAUSE I DONT FEEL COMFORTABLE. i knw i knw, i brought it upon myself for skipping class so much and not getting to knw my classmates. but, i dont knw? low self-esteem maybe? i dont wan to turn in late and get a feeling that some of them are saying im a free-loader or im just there to stone whole day. i dont like. I knw i'll say this kind of things when i meet such people, thats why im not attending.

stopped for an hour

seriously everything is just so demoralising at the moment. the grades, the modules, the faci, the classmates, the team mates. whatever lah you name it. ive problem wiv every fuckin little thing.

i WILL TRY TO GO TO SCHOOL.

I WILL GO

i hope......

hi

2009-11-29T22:05:00.001+08:00

omg I'm at taka now waiting for Jiahui! jus finish work. well not exactly. I finish at ard 9 and when I went to the toilet and shit I realist I can go for express Mani upstairs! so I ran upstairs to do without bringing money ! heng got angie who brought ten bucks up for me. after closing went over etude house to look for yumin! finally met her after so long!! and yeh chatted for awhile and here I am waiting at taka. so do you all like this kind of boring post or pictorial more!? LOL and I think there's a prob wig my tagboard cus I always get double tag! it's lagggg so u guys can jus click once and wait for awhile before u exit my page okie! xiexie. omg after typing for 5mins she's not out yet. we're bf for tauhuay! kbye

love == friendshp == love

2009-11-27T03:52:00.004+08:00

LIKE, SERIOUSLY?

without oxygen do you even think you can live to LOVE?

Some people are just quite stupid to think they cant live without love.

what is LOVE?

break up = drinking till you puke like a merlion ? swallowing panadol till you need to pump ur stomach ? committing suicide ?

OR SHOULD IT BE,

break up = friends being by your side comforting you? realising the love from your family and friends? New opportunities coming your way?

someone told me " why shld i be there when he/she is gona commit suicide? he/she is not even dead yet and we're making it like we're attending a funeral that everyone is supposed to turn up ".

HARSH words to our bestfriend, but true enough, it makes sense.

it left me thinking, should we really only give attention only when someone is out of love? or should we always spread our love to our loved ones?

BUT, spreading love to others,

do they appreciate it ? are they taking for granted?

why cant love be associate more wiv friends?

why must it be : LOVE = BOYS/GIRLS(opposite sex)

and not, : LOVE = FRIENDS, FAMILY.

maybe cus i hadnt experience it before. but from my point of view, why only look for love from friends only when u've fallen out of the BOY/GIRLS thing.

its just sometimes i wonder, why do i put in so much effort but couldnt get much in return.

dont friends appreciate ur love? or are they just madly deeply in love.

well, oh well. friends & love cant be a balance sometimes.

i got the feeeling

2009-11-21T14:38:00.005+08:00

i got a feeeling to BLOG TODAY. i got woken up by damien at like 1+pm when i slp at ard 6+am this morning. But soon i heard calls of daphne calling for help in the room to carry her out of the sarong. HAHA. SHE'S SO HAPPY & CUTE TODAY and i took the camera and start snapping her! Here's the pictures!!

SO CUTE RIGHT TODAY HER FACE SO CHEERY. LOL

Johnne's 20th on July30th

2009-11-11T05:11:00.009+08:00

I wanted to apologize for the late post(s), but i think i dont need to because,

THIS IS MY BLOG (:

anyhows. these are the pictures from Johnne's Bday. I KNW ITS LATE, I KNOW~

i remember clearly that the bday boy transform from HAPPY BOY TO PEKCHEK BOY.

because of long hours of waiting and unplanned night.

sorry johnneboy, u knw we love you. we still owe you one (:

well, just let the pictures do the talking.

oh! and Jacq treated me for Swensens before heading over to meet them at amk. It was a belated bday treat for ME. thankyou darling.

LOOK AT HIS FACE FROM THIS PHOTO ONWARDS!!

entertaining us only. TEEHEE.

RIGHT????? ALL THE PICTURES THE FACE HAS NO SMILES> hais.

jacq is SIBEI CAMWHORE PLS.

2009-11-07T19:38:00.004+08:00

so hows the new blogskin ? HEHE NICE??
anw, hope this new blogskin motivates me to blog more! :D
till then!!

2009-10-21T01:05:00.003+08:00

hahliew! am suppose to be sleeping but just felt like blogging, the medicine's I just ate haven make any drowsy reactions to me! argh pls come soooon. ANW, gotta be in school @11am for fyp! so boring!
there's quite a few issue i've been wanting to rant but I keep feeling this isn't that correct ground to do so.

was 'diagnose' with being to stressful with myself and causing my body to work weirdly. I think I've been keeping too much to myself, too much. so much that even if I wanted to say, j wouldn't knw how to start of even where to start of with. yaya, I'm the emo kid yo! I really miss being a carefree kid. miss doing things without worry, miss talking without thinking, miss the simple life, miss the friends I once held so close.

lastly, I really think this friendship is nothing to you, go live in your far away land and we shall just be acquaintence and nothing more. I'm so disappointed. you can say the same thing to me, it no longer hurts. everythings' numb in this cold and cruel world.

double Ds.

2009-10-15T22:15:00.006+08:00

Have been so long since i last posted the babies photos,

ENJOY! :D

new pedicure!

2009-10-14T21:19:00.002+08:00

Pedicure wiv AhChoo !

rush bck home after school for pedicure, was too early so we nua-ed ard at home,

now both our toes hve a "garden".

next time we shall just tell them dont use green color luh hor. HAHA.

PS: i knw my toes/feet is ugly. no need remind me of that & my cutesy lil toenails. HAHA

2009-10-09T14:56:00.004+08:00

hi i'm in class doing nothing. First week of school just pass so quickly. i was surprised by my waking hours, i'm like on time everyday except today for the freaking jam. TSK. first minus 0.5 of the semester. i've like blog-hopped almost every blog i read and ive nothing to do now. HOW RIKE THAT. i keep refreshing my twitter page and facebook to find new things to read, but sadly no one is like active nowww.

Last team on presentation now, then 6P then..................... FYP -.- much dreaded. i hope i can just run home and jump on my bed and coma till tmr. HAHA. im meeting sexys later at night after FYP @ amk ! yay, ages since we all met up tgt. misss you guysxzs

wha fuck i having headache alr, i cant skip fyp :( the project seems quite difficult and a lot of criteria to fulfill BUT MY TEAM MATES SAY VERY EASY. tell me they're smart, not crazy.

i miss my people. school starts, end of freedom to play-til-you-drop timing.

i miss secondary school, really.

WHY*

why people lie?

why people must tell other people about you?

why other people but come back and tell you that some people talk about you?

why are there these kind of people around?

why cannot listen already then just shut up?

2009-10-05T19:44:00.003+08:00

i was reading back my entries, and i realise i was expressing myself way better before.

i didnt realise, because i thought i was doing it like before, and i myself saw a difference.

now, my posts are like decreased to around 5post per month? and mostly are like pictorial form.

perhaps im just lazy, and yeh, sick of everything.

i ate my words. i dont knw if i'll regret it or not.

20th Bday Part3. bowenloves.

2009-09-24T20:29:00.001+08:00

I know this is like super late. but, better than nothing right... LOL

I'll like to thank my bowenloves for making an effort for my bday. It's the 2nd year and the surprise never fails to shock me. HAHA LUB YOU GUYS DEEP DEEP OKIE.

I remember hanxiang had afew drinks before coming & he was exceptionally high that day! HAHA

WE SHY LEH.

THANK YOU SHIRLEY <3> playing wiv the candles at swensen -.-

checking something? i forgot. HA

HELLO :D

gossiping. HAHA

we shared (:

After eating, they left for "TOILET" and came back with hugeass hellokitty & a cake!!

i was totally too shocked for words just OMGOMGOMG. i swear the whole restaurant was looking. SO SWEET OF YOU ALL♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Ying cropped out the pic to put on cake. PLS, NEXT TIME CHOOSE NICER PIC CAN. HAHA

I dont knw what i was doing. HA

there! the hellokitty! ♥

me wiv my surprises! ♥

Thanks PEOPLE!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

making a wish, i look constipated -.-

BLOW WIND BLOW

the knife got HEART SHAPE LEH!

got paparazzi, but im always ready! HAHA

XIEXIE LOVE.

THANKYOU AUNTIE WEELEI.

XIEXIE SHAN meimei. HAHA

THANK YOU GERA!!

♥ YOU ALWAYS YING, thank you for all the planning ♥ ♥

helliew chiat. dono what he did to mke my face liddat. HAHA

XIEXIE RONGCHOOOOON.

the girls ♥ ♥

another one cus hello kitty block huili. HA

♥

thank you HANXIANG.

TERIMA KASI HAFIFI.

CUT CAKE ONLY.

MY BIRTHDAY WHY YOU SO HAPPY! HA

ying look horrible but i think we looked GREAT! (:

HA, they look like twin. SAME SMILE SAME SPEC. HA

block at the entrance of parco to tke picture -.- HAHA

was REALLLY shocked when i saw him. HAHA. i mean when i jus reach luh. thanks dude for making it ! (:

Jam outside partyworld cus we were deciding whether to sing or not to.

Cut cake for those who are leaving!

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN. I SWEAR THIS PIC IS FUCKING GAY. HAHA

mens' talk.

ITS MINE OKAY!

hanxiang why you so happpy.

chiat + kitty = GAY

hanafi looks like kitty is his new gf. lOL

ALL THE CALEFARE BEHIND WHILE WE TAKE PICTURE

they are like beggar sitting there waiting for ppl to give them money HAHA.(THEY SAY SO THEMSELVES)

they scare hellokitty will be cold -.-

EVENTUALLY WE ENDED UP IN KBOX@CINE.

2 idiots !! HAHA

shirley damn camera ready uh!

FARHAN ERXIN.

what a purrrrfect match!

I called Indren to say we're celebrating my bday and then the next call he made was saying he's at cineleisure! SIBEI ON, i LIKE. thanks dude!

like i say, we promote racial harmony ! HAHA! ANW, farhan look fucking gay!

Thanks girl for making to the ktv even though you dont sing at all ! :D

HELLO

i think we were too bored.

i was bored, so took alot of photo with kitty! HAHA

Everyone wants a piece of kitty!

i toldya...

hehe. paiseh ah.

she tends to look ugly. LOL

their "expensive" letter cus its written by a mont blanc pen. HAHAH

they think i like hellokitty ALOT. lol.

thank you xuelililili.

VERY NICE (:

at the end of the ktv session everyone was so drained.

tired face.

he say he like his left profile better.

indren says kitty needs a smoke too.

the cake ended up like this!

THANKS TO YOU PEOPLE I HAD A WONDERFUL CELEBRATION!! LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE OKIE. srry im rushingout, thus not much caption at the back.

2009-09-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

the world is all about pretending and being pretentious

mani&pedi

2009-09-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

UPDATED WIV A PARAGRAPH OF WORDS LUH.

manicure from tday(10/9/09), which i think not that nice, and pedicure frm 2weeks ago which is still doing good only for one chipped part!

chooojiahui no laugh at my toes okie! HAHAHA

went mani&pedi wiv jiahui, she did pedi while i did mani. well well, finally got my "stripe" design done, but not as what i wanted luhhh. nehmind. hahaha.
we had the famous chicken rice in fep and went off to like walk the whole of town.
we walked from FEP til PS before stopping down. IMAGINE. walk damn longgg. practically wasting time luh~
we went around plaza sing and eventually settled down at starbucks!
Thanks for the treat at starbucks. we had afew silent moments, afew itouch moment, and quite alot of chatting moments. LUB YOU LAH AH CHOO.
&SAD we're numb of each other that we dont tke pictures anymore. HAHAHHAA

annoyed

2009-09-18T03:47:00.003+08:00

im only on the 2-3rd stage.

i need a word vomit. i feel very irritated. THAT feeling came again. after so many months. omg. couldnt be pms cus its ending.

i feel so irritated ! argh. have been bumming around at home for like 3weeks,
everyday eat, sleep, use laptop, watch tv, play with babies, sleep.
thats the fucking routine im repeating everyday.
and even if i were to go out, i still have to stretch my hands out to get money from my dad.
which isnt much & isnt easy getting money from them. GAWD.

I dont knw to be happy or sad in this situation whereby i am slacking/rotting at home every single day. People will be like " wha, so relax ah, so good ah, lucky you no need to wrk "
BUT YOU THINK I LIKE TO BE HANDICAP NUA AT HOME MEH.
i couldnt find a job for this holiday and had to be at home. FML FML FML FML.

im feeling damn useless with no money to hang out, but loads of time to just rot at home.
i miss those days where i can have good food, goood entertainment, good outing without worrying about money. NOW? REALLY IS FML. i think there's only 3bux left in my wallet. ARGH.
even if i find a job now, I DONT EVEN HVE THE MONEY TO ENJOY THE HOLIDAY.
walao. sibei dulan. i think the whole issue is about money & how ppl look. fuckfuckfuck.

THIS TAUGHT ME TO SAVE FOR THE FUCKING RAINY DAYS. FUCKKKKKKKKKK.

sorry friends if i say i was busy or cant go out, i really have to choose a pathetic budget outing than go out and hve loadsa fun over food & entertainment. gimme some time and let me earn some buckaroos. i dont wan to be the pathetic one having ppl to sympathize me and treat me and let me feel so loserish or you guys having to accomodate to my whatever my financial status allows me to. JUS GO OUT & HAVE FUN.

OH I HATE PPL WHO KEEP SAYING " YAH, IM LIKE DAMN POOR TOO" or " WALAO, DAMN BROKE, CANT SPEND ALR", but the next min i knw they are like spending so much money. FUCK LAH, no need to act pathetic wiv me okay. PLEASE, LOOK AT ME, I CANT EVEN AFFORD A BETTER MEAL ( THE MOST FAST FOOD ). DON COME AND TELL ME ABOUT MY MANICURES & SHIT(like i stil gt money do mani&pedi), its because i use the money i got that day from my parents and i spend it on manicure, and its fucking cheap. AND USUALLY AFTER MANICURE IF I NO MONEY I WIL JUST STOP SPENDING. IRRITATING. SORRY I SIBEI DULAN, so need to vent out these verbal abusive words. PARDON THIS POST OF VULGARITIES IF YOU FEEL ITS AGAINST YOU.

WHA, THE MORE I TYPE, THE MORE PEKCHEK I FEEL LEH. KNN.
ITS LIKE 7AM now, I SHOULD SLEEP. REALLY FML.
ANOTHER TWO WEEKS TO NUA AT HOME. GOD BLESS ME.

bday p2.

2009-09-04T03:19:00.023+08:00

Hisxz. pictures are finally hereee! :D :D

actually i uploaded it like right after i updated the post, but there's so MUCH gap in between the pictures so i drafted it and wait until now. & i took 2days to remove the damn spaces. -.-

i think there might be quite abit of pictures, but nonetheless, these are the pictures from the actual day of my birthday wiv my SEXYS. <3

i shall just let the pictures do the talking, freaking tired, its like 6.30am in the morning now.

Quite afew of me and huizhi !

Peiying, i miss your longgg hair! !

hi kenneth :D

huizhi the camwhore. below all her picture lor. HAHA

she FORCED a kiss on me i think. HAHA

and the surprise cake came! :D

awww, bday kisses !

i think ppl who dono me are so gona think im a lesbian or smething. SORRY im not! HA

was too shy :X ahaha!

i like this picture when i blow out the candle ! HA

johnne looked damn shagged that day.

peiying, the smke from shisha smell very nice meh. LOL

i look like im trying very hard lor. tsktsk.

yay!

this loooks bettter !

didnt knw what i was doing.

they are trying to "seduce" each other. HA

fyi, they're married in FB. lol !

OOOO, change target !

Deb's fav pose!

Johnne copied ! LOL

guess which leg belows who.

damn wrong. HA

Sorry, we're damn bored, so kinda keep tking pictures. LOL

Looks like there's a hot gossip there !

DAMN GOOOOOOD PLATTTERRRRRR.

deb, look at how huizhi & kenn looked at you. like a monster.

OPEN YOUR EYES!! @.@

My favorite sign that day! Stands for me, becoming 2-0!

deb got too excited she toook of her clothes.

Another picture of prove!

we're only 1weeek apart ! HAPPY TWENTIETH TO US! :D

kena cheated lor. just pay and go without lookin at the receipt, until i saw this photo, and realised we're OVERCHARGED. ERXIN.

okaybye, im damn tired. going 7 in the morning alr. Upload the others sooooon.

AND CAN YOU ALL TAG, if not i feel like i blogging to no one. OMG.

lovelovelove you all okie. HAHA

2009-09-02T16:08:00.002+08:00

WILL BE BACK TO POST PICTURES SOOOON !! MAYB TNIGHT OR TMR NIGHT (:

lovelove :D

"sneak preview" First. HAHAHA.

Did we ?

2009-09-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

(from postsecret.com)

2009-08-27T23:38:00.004+08:00

I feel like ive been walking ard alot man. HAHA. too long nv step out of my comfort zone alr.

pls skip this post if u don wish to listen to my nonsense. thankyou.

Sunday - Dinner at 684 wiv Aaron then met up wiv Jon Kenn & Hz then they came over my place for MJ. I WON. WOOOHOOO. first time winning lor, everytime is i give tuition fee one. HAHA.

Monday - bored at home the whole day, recuperate my sleep for MJ on the previous night. was SUUPAAA Lethargic at home. Ate only a meal & was feeling so hungry at night, rang Aaron up, and offf we go for TAUHUAY! yayness! supposed to meet up wiv hx, but wrg tauhuay place he went. when we were abt to leave the tauhuay place, the car died. like omfg. our car is like blocking other cars and we didnt knw what to do. waited for his friend to come and save us, and we had another round of tauhuay when the car finally worked.

2rounds of tauhuay in a night, madness. bought tauhuay bck for choojiahui, thank me quick. HAHA

Tuesday - LAST UT OF THE FREAKING SEMESTER & BYEBYE TO YEAR 3 SEM 1 !! WOOOHOOO.

After UT, rushed down to TTSH wiv Angeline & Darren to visit my granduncle. well, we practically rot & stone there because there wasnt anything to do.

Headed to town, PS wiv Angeline for DAISO! bought quite abit of tidbits for the coming chalet! Rushed down to meet Jiahui to go home tgt. we were supposed to cab home, but thank god my dad came to fetch us bck!

Home to leave my laptop at home, and headed out to HZ's place for MJ !! again!.

&& YAY, winner again! HEHEHE. was supposed to send her & jacq to the airport for their holiday, but jo&jon was too tired so we cancelled it. SORRY HZ., luv you manymany okie. YAY. goodies from TW, TIE DAN TIE DAN WOOOHOOO.

WEDNESDAY - rested whole freaking day at home again, until night time went to TTSH again. Hope everythings' gona be fine !! :D

Thursday(TODAY) - woke up frigging early@ like 9am-ish ? for so called interview at JURONG EAST. frigging tiring. first time i reach someplace ON TIME, can you believe it. HAIS.

on the way there, there's this angmoh family on MRT as well, and also one GROUP of aunties, they were damn amused by the blonde beautiful girls and keep talking among themselves abt how pretty & cute. HA. the point here is, theyre very noisy. HA then the one of the pretty girl turn & smiled at me, i didnt knw how to react to such a sensible lil girl man. HA.

Apparently, one of the girls peel off her plaster from her hand and her finger was like FLOWING wiv blood. zomg. being a damn good Singaporean, i pass them plaster & that saved their day. im the HEROINE. HAHAHA. and oh! one of the angmoh kid dig her nose & ate her boogey.EEEW.

After "interview", headed to SEMBAWANG for my new pants & off to meet Jiahui @ AMK. cabbed over to fep for manicure again! HAHA. fugg, this time no chio, so i dowan take picture show off. LOL. ANW, GREAT TO SEE CHEESE & GWEN AFTER SO NONG.

Headed to TPY to sell her damn viewty phone, walao, more 30bux than me. erxin. LOL.

Had Sakae for dinner, and we were cheated! okay, not really cheated but the food was CMI, and we didnt really order alot and the bill cme up to $40+. damn the 17% of gst. there wasnt even any service in the first place.

We went bck hougang aftermath for eyebrow trimming. thankew you for paying for me. love u okay. HAHA. next time go bck thre, no go coslab liao. HAHAHA.

HOME & IM PRACTICALLY BORED, SO IM BLOGGIN ONE WHOLE CHUNK OF SHITS INSTEAD OF PICTURES( pictures tkes longer to load ) HAHA.

okay bye. pedicure tmr YAYNESS, chalet tmr & sat ! Sun meeting cheese&Gwen. wwwwoooooo ! (Y)

goodnight world.

2009-08-20T03:59:00.002+08:00

Only a few from Ash's camera because most of it are from mine.

loveee the colors here. HAHA

Gooodnight people! Update the others SOOOOON. :D:D

20th Celebration @ Timbre 21st July.

2009-08-20T02:06:00.018+08:00

Uploading of the pictures and removing the spaces in between took me 1.5hr ! OMG. okay, include the time whre im chatting wiv hq & deb on facebook. HAHA.

Okay, so here it is, my very First celebration wiv Jerlynn&Ash @Timbre.

They are like the best people i could've ever known in FEP man, seriously. not that others are not impt, just that, our bond is THAT strong. i miss you girls. hehe.

So that very evening of 21st July, i met them at cityhall then we walked over to timbre.

& you might ask why celebrate on 21st? HAHA. cus our dear KMT gg to HK the nxt dayyy~

& when we just met up, they were like " WE KNEW YOU WIL BE IN BLACK, SO WE DECIDED TO GO ON A ALL-WHITE THEME, BUT FORGOT TO INFORM YOU, BUT WE'VE PREPARED FOR YOU". i was thinking walao, cannot be i can wear clothes you all buy ma, ended up, it was the tee that they customized ! SO SWEEET! & the size was like just nice, i prefer it a tad bigger thou. HAHA.

tryna' show off the shirt !!

When the food were served. look at the heart shape!!

damn gluttony !

THERE !! MY HEART SHAPE FISH & CHIPS! NICE!

Chicken wing is her EVERYTHING.

oh, the chickenwing is really damn nice.

eat until damn happpy lor this girl.

NICE OR NICE? VERY NICE.

kilkenny for us, wasnt that nice when it loses its chill.

WHY SO SAD.

hellllo. no tke picture when ppl on the phone!

There was this liveband there which is damn goood. couldnt realy capture the whole band cus i was practically blocked by that treee. BUT, they made the ambience damn gooood.

Trying out the color accent function on our camera!

both of them hve the colors,

BUT NOT ME! :(

always like to act very happy lidat. LOL

main focus on our picture on her chest.

Basically there's alot of pictures to flood this entry. i think i upload like almost everything, except those that i feel is exceptionally ugly or smething. HAHAHA

we were quite red from drinking and i try tking this shot,

THEN SHE COPY. HAHAHA coool right color accent.

We then left to Ash's place.

but kinda stopped awhile outside the carpark to tke some pictures. HAHA

yay! lovelove!

dono whats with this pose. HAA

togetherness. loveeeeee!

trying to b cock eye.

we..

are..

the..

happpy...

kiddds !

not bad uh my skill. ARGH. oily hair + skin. tsktsk.

went bck to Ash's place cause she's gona pack her stuffs for HK and go over her bf;s place.

rushed down when ah hian reached.

was in sucha camwhoring mood mann. must be damn happy that day. HAHA

THANKS GIRLS FOR THE TEE, THE TREAT @ TIMBRE, THE TIME SPENT WIV ME. I LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE YOU TWOOOOO :D:D

part 2 in awhile. afew pictures from Ash's camera.

2009-08-08T02:21:00.002+08:00

bored like fuck on a friday night.
weeekdays were quite abit of fun.

Tues after school rushed home, had lunch then out to peace centre.
Acc-ed jovene to print her PP poster wiv ash.
Dinner. random chats. phototaking. loves.

Wed, skipped school :X OOPS.
met debra at her place, town for lunch.
i did my nails, as shown in previous post. SHIT LAH, chipped alr :(
deb cut her pixie hair. a lot better (Y).
HQ came, i left them to meet w14e while they shopped.

Dinner over at Aston's at Cathay. wonderful. cheap. nice.
Handsome suit over at emax lvl 9 cine. VEH NICE.
after movie was friggin' late and all were rushing for last train.
practically RAN for the friggin train.
i ran halfway and decided to give it a miss.
in desperate moments, called my parents to save me. instead of coming over to fetch me, got fucked. pissed. hung up. sat at one corner and practically stoned while looking for ppl to save me.
thank god for Aaron. THANKS (: cab over his place. he paid for me.
hung out for a little while. home & slept.

Thurs. late for school. bus was even later. decided to skip. :X took sibei long journey bck home. Mom still showing temper over the previous night. didnt talk much. just ignore my presence of returning so early. ( was barely out for 2-3hrs).
nua the whole freakingday. Jianwei booked out. met at late night for macs. wiv aaron & saywee. supper & left aaron alone to study on his own. EMO KID.

fri. went school. class suck. stoned. fb-ed. blog-hopped. fb again. msn. sibeh emo. walk bck to tke bus to interchange alone. in a way was gd. quiet moments for me to wonder my mind ard.
reach home, sibeh tired again. K.O-ed on the bed and woke up in between feeling hot/colds. as if fever coming. nua/slept til 9+ and woke up until now.

AFTER ONE FRIGGING CHUNK OF WORD, DID YOU REALISE HOW BORED I AM.

new manicure!

2009-08-05T18:29:00.002+08:00

2009-07-29T21:24:00.002+08:00

After 13 weeks, with a lot of help from my team mates,
with the previous few days of chionging of FYP,
wiv over 100bux spend for formal wear on presentation,
with that one hour stressful presentation,

ITS FINALLY OVER. FYP1 IS FINALLY OVER (Y).

2009-07-28T02:15:00.002+08:00

sad. emotional. lonely. irritated. drained. frustrated. guilty. neglected. neglectful. annoyed. tired. lefted out. unwanted. my bad or your bad.

can anyone make me feel better.

lovelovelove!

2009-07-26T06:09:00.003+08:00

*YAWN* Just finish MJ session wiv Ying, Aaron & Kexiong.
was supposed to be a clubbing trip.We were in Liang Court
having subway, and eventually decides to turn a clubbing
session to MJ SESSION!!

was goddamn suay, i lost ard $20 in total. BUT, thanks to them
for saying IM the Bday girl, so they didnt take my money on the first round.
HAHAHAHA.

OH, thank you Aaron for the chompchomp treat yesterday, damn appreciated.
and Jody! for the cutesy lollipop! :D

THEN, thanks my SEXYS for the shisha treat & cake!!!
and Johnne for the "angbao". <3

and Yes, Ash & Jer for the timbre treat + Teeshirt !

and of course, all the people who wished me thru text, fb, phonecalls, in-person, msn.
i hope i can list EVERYONE OUT. i hope lah, see if the laziness hit my bones anot. LOL.
okay bye. i neeeeeed to rush the fyp report NOW. its 6.30am alr. & i cant slp yet.

Still needa hve lunch wiv jianwei tmr. (YES, bday treat again.)
thank you everyone, for making me feel so LOVED <3

2009-07-23T12:14:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU PEOPLE, FOR WISHING ME ON MY WALL :D

Lovelovelovelovelove! <3

2009-07-23T00:01:00.004+08:00

祝我生日快乐

i wish for peace, happiness and be rich. thanks.

forever28.

2009-07-21T12:21:00.003+08:00

She was 28, still young and beautiful,
still ambitious and forward looking.
She was brave, strong and independent.
She was well-loved and treasured by friends and relatives.
She was also a very filial and good girl.

She's my cousin.
She passed away on 15th July 2009 because of stomach cancer.

She found out about her last year and didn't let anyone knw.
She fought the illness for almost a year, alone. ALONE.
She didn't want her family & friends to be worried for her,
and she went for 6 chemotherapy session alone.

She faced the illness alone.
Because of this illness, she lost 20kg in half a year.
The last time i saw her she had already dropped weight,
but not to the extend of what I saw when she's lying cold and stiff
in the coffin. The sight of her in there is really heartbreaking.

She kept the bad news to herself because her brother was getting married,
and didn't want to dampen the joyous spirit. She suggested a family portrait for keepsake.
And i think that's the last few photo they took together..

She was stunning and beautiful on the wedding day of her brother,
and basically earned a lot of envy from the ladys present there.
But when we(my cousin&I) saw her in the coffin,
she said " i'l never gona be envious of ppl being slim anymore".
WHY you might think. because what's left of her in the coffin
was just bags of bones. she WAS that skinny, like a skeleton form.

What i wanted to share was her fighting spirit towards cancer.
She was so young but had to battle so hard against the illness,
days before she died, she even wrote a list of who to call to let them knw abt her passing on.

So responsible, she even plan nicely for her funeral, she also baptised just 2days before her death. She knew where she wana go even on her deathbed.
I dont knw why, i feel, she's so worth for respect.

I wasn't close with her at all, but i did my part on attending her wake & funeral throughout.
I saw a lot of friends and colleague of hers mourning over her, crying over the loss of her.
I'm glad she left the world, because she need not fight the battle alone, knwing she won't even win the battle, she need not face any pains or miserables anymore.

Her god is with her, may she Rest In Peace.
She will be fondly remembered in our family.

"One in a million people under the age of 55 seeking medical attention for
indigestion have stomach cancer and one in fifty of all ages seeking medical
attention for burping and indigestion have stomach cancer. Out of 10 million
people in the Czech Republic, only 3 new cases of stomach cancer in people under
thirty years of age in 1999 were diagnosed. Other studies show that less than 5%
of stomach cancers occur in people under 40 years of age with 81.1% of that 5%
in the age-group of 30 to 39 and 18.9% in the age-group of 20 to 29."

from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stomach_cancer.
(saw this at another cousins' blog)

point pt point.

2009-07-19T02:52:00.002+08:00

Because i love to state in points.

The weather is sibei humid until my armpits are sweating.HAHAHA.
Stayhome Saturday! (Y)
the image of RL in her coffin keep flashes bck.
I spent one whole week attend wakes & funeral.
I've gt 876523456789 things to blog about
but i dont really hve time to.....
i hope my results wil be goood to pul up my GPA.
i am bored to tears now.
I am so bored no games in fb can amuse me.
i've no feelings that my bday is just 4days away.
Aaron just called me to go meet him
I think i shld go now.
I always hve so much to blog but whenever i reach this page, nothing seems to be out.
i still hve pics of zoo, ndp, alot of bdays!, damien&daphne, random outings, OH! Class BBQ! and alot alot more i guess. SHITXZS.
i'll try to blog 1 by 1.
i neeed alot of $$$.
i think my bday is gona be plain
last year i really had a blast.
oh i wana blog about my late cousin too.
just wana share her story wiv people reading.
okay need to change and go meet Aaron.
OKAYBYE!

RIP

2009-07-17T18:27:00.003+08:00

the burial ceremony has ended. It didnt hurt as much as crematorial. But i still hope the best to her. Like her religion says, sand to sand, dust to dust. God has brought her back to his side.

2009-07-09T15:21:00.005+08:00

Hellllo flensxzs. It feels like ages that I've updated this space . HA

i've pictures in my phone, my camera( Majority damien?) haha. so..

i'll definitely update again about my lil erxin Damien.

My Sec school class BBQ, thank you guys for makin it happen!

About NDP preview, thanks Jianwei again for the tickets!

SARAHCHAN's BDAY! not much photo thou :( HA. we shall tke mre next time!!

Another rascal who i visit alot ! Yan En ! :D

And lastly, my stupid gong gong ah tam cutest boy damien! HAHAHA.

GUGU LOVE YOUU.

random

2009-07-02T14:36:00.004+08:00

hello. im very happy cus im getting NDP tickets. no idea isit on 9th Aug or what. but whatever it is, thanks to Jianwei for the tickets !! yay!

HAHA. AND, thanks to Shirley Gera Jianwei & Kahseng for the din treat at the serangoon ZI CHAR okie! LOL SO funny, thanks for letting me hve extra 6bucks in my wallet ah. Next time i treat DRINKS! yay.

Oh, and I caught afew movies recently. I used to be someone who dont like to catch movie. BUT, dono why, mayb its the movies that i wana watch. i shall update sooooon.

ITS JULY JULY JULY !! ANYONE RMB AN IMPORTANT DATE ON JULY!!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i wana watch ICEAGE3 omg. 3D one pls.
i wana GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kbye!

spot'em!

2009-06-27T16:15:00.001+08:00

CAN YOU TELL WHICH ONE IS DAMIEN, WHICH IS DAPHNE?

answers, next post. LOL

Daphne's first haircut.

2009-06-25T19:45:00.001+08:00

this is Daphne's first shave and also last. Cus she's a girl so we wanna keep her hair long. Hahaha. Botak meimei nw! Damien couldnt recognise her lor. Omg.

BEFORE

AFTER. HAHAHAHA.

disappointment.

2009-06-25T12:38:00.003+08:00

whats there left for us ? all the disappointment and empty hopes.
everything came crashing down us and its all bck to the "reality" you all thought.
All we can say is that WE never exist anymore, what about then ? im someone who reminisce alot of the past, the good ol'times. how we knew one another, how we all hve no monetary, family, bgr, work problems, how much we were there for each other.

I remember when i wasnt that close to u guys, i didnt dare to open up, but now, everyone opened up to each other, how come it the situation became worst? was it the ugly facts about each that leave us scowling, or isit that we just cant stand each other ? Alot of questions popping ard my mind, and words still harshly stab in my heart. why have we all grown to this state?
Why is growing up such a chore that affects everyone of us, our feelings, our thoughts, our emotions.

NO ONE to ask me what happened. i will say if i want.
i am truely disappointed. i knw i've faults too, why cant we just solve it instead of running away from it ?

ME & FLEN ON YOUTUBE!

2009-06-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

im on YOUTUBE OMG. only for a split second thou. tgt wiv Aaron Jianwei & Yingying.

It was that day where we send Jianwei off to tekong!. omg.

ANW, its at abt 1.00 there. and it was deb who found out abt the video. damn funny lah,

stil cant believe they actually posted it up on youtube. retardeddd.

you're everything to me.

2009-06-12T04:25:00.008+08:00

My Sexys, Oh Dear Sexys.

You guys meant SO MUCH to me i cant bear to let anyone go. Many times we didn't had time for one another, other times we took each other for granted. It wasn't on intention, it wasn't we didnt want to see one another, we knew we love each and everyone dearly.

The friendship we built didn't came easy, it started with afew, left a handful and nw filled wiv love of ten.

How many times do we actually sit down and talk abt our inner self, how many times do we share our woes, how many times do we have to put up a strong front just to sunken ur own feelings for the times we're meeting happily. I feel it would be better if we pour sorrows together and solve our problems together than everyone being happy joking but one or two is trying to act okay and "enjoy" with us. i dont see a point hiding, although i might be the one who would be hiding too, but this morning totally woke me up from all these daze, and hit me back to reality.

i CANT lose any of you, and i mean it.

Thank you, for i realise the vulnerablity in a friendship, how forlorn we(i) will be feeling when something is happening, its was just to sudden and i started thinking for the worst. I'm glad the worst didn't happen and it will not ever happen.

I wish and hope we hve mre "family photos" together. look at the pictures i've uploaded. how many has full attendance? how many is only half of the grp.

i miss us way back when we're 16, so carefree, so enthusiastic, so cute and adorable loving each other.

I just wanna let you guys know i love and treasure everyone of you, yes, all NINE of my SEXYS. you guys are always loved, be it wherever you are, how not free you are.

I LOVE MY SEXYS.

:D

2009-06-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

my new manicure!! Nice? Not really what i wanted, but close to it :)

damien eating jelly ice cream!

2009-06-08T22:53:00.001+08:00

He keeep asking for th
Ice cream

e71

2009-06-06T15:14:00.002+08:00

coolshit, this phone works better when connectin to e internet comparing to viewtyy! now i've another device to blog other than my itouch when im outside. Okayy, maybe not blog but to fb. Lol.

procrastination.

2009-05-31T16:42:00.002+08:00

After procrastinating for SO long, I've finally got it off !

I'M JOBLESSS ! (on monday that is)
YES, I QUIT MY FEP JOB!

are u happy or are you not. haha.
i hope i wont suffer from financial crisis.
so u all can date me out on SUNDAYS, im FREE NW!
but i must go budget budget, cus allowance is damn limited :(

okay i shall rejoice for the moment.

HQ's 20th Bday celebration.

2009-05-23T18:01:00.009+08:00

Picture post, decipher the pictures yourself. LOL. no lah, i rushing out, come back and do caption okie. GDBYE! :D

D&D :D

2009-05-13T23:19:00.004+08:00

On this May 12th, it became a very special day,

because 2 of my angel are born on this day,

and so coincidentally, they are only a year apart.

It was Damien's First Birthday Celebration, and Daphne's Birth - day.

this is damien wiv his cake on his 1st Bday celebration! on 10th May

and this on the actual day of his bday! SO CUTE RIGHT.

then, damien visits his meimei in the hospital ! he got damn jealous even until nw.

Daphne looks so pretty right!!! :D

OKay damien dont worry, GUGU STILL LOVE YOU ALOT OKAY. love u manymany.

MUACK!
will upload Damien's bday & mre about Daphne soon! lovelove!

swine!

2009-05-08T15:09:00.003+08:00

I seriously NEED A break.. :(

(picture from postsecret.com)

accompanied YJ to polyclinic for his MC and WE NEED TO WEAR MASK!

hi . guess my expression. LOLOL!!

like no expressions lor. burden. so mafan, stil need to wear mask.

How i realy wish Influenza A wil hit Singapore so that we can hve a break from school, work, and everything elsee...

OKAYBYE

sucks

2009-05-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

i think school is the main cause of my roller coaster mood, mostly angry, irritated and pissed. lol
i am generally pekchek everyday haisxz.

sometimes we blame people for what's not done, but have we realised what we've NOT done yet too? i cant blame this thing for wasting so much time because i DID realise what i hadnt been doing and I should reflect and try to do what i'm supposed to do.
ahh. whatever...

have been feeling damn restless everyday from school, and starting to have the thought of skipping school. lucky i endured until week3 before i finally skip a lesson, amazing isn't it? LOL
and all my lessons was minus 0.5 cus im always late.

you knw how not motivating it is getting in school, with overflowing FYP stuffs to do, EVERYDAY lessons, different class different people, fucked up faci who DONT realise when people has done their stuffs.

i think i can only blog when im angry lor. like whenever i feel frustrated and when i need to find a space to rant on, my blog has listening ears !
but there's still alot of things that im not able to type here becus u people are reading and im afraid u guys wil feel offended.

But i very badly wana talk abt friends. does this term means lifelong acquaintence or BFF or hibye friends or ppl whom u'll find when u need them or when THEY NEED you.
i really wonder..............................................
i think mayb because i am quite inferior, i often think why ppl wil do this do that to ME not THEM, or i think ppl wil prefer to hang out with THEM, not ME, these kinda things.
dont blame me for my inferiority becus it just came, and i knw u ppl wil say " Think too much", but, i'll still hve these thoughts no matter what.

I feel very lonely in school at times(all thetime?), mayb its because of different classmates everyday, mayb its because my friends hve other friends, its like very hard to find ppl to eat & go out of the school on breaks together. I can jolly well just skip break if noob nver come school, cus no one wil accompany me :( i knw i can always call other ppl for lunch, but like last min, usualy when i ask, ppl wil tell me they need to do PPT or have alr eaten or whatever reason luh. HAIXZS

okay i shall stop being emo.
its finally partially out of my mind.
IM STILL STRESSED OVER SCHOOL,FYP. omg. holidays also no use, needa chiong FYP.
ZZZZZZZZZZ
OKAYBYE

);

2009-04-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

it might be the night which affected me,
the feeling just dawned over and surround my thoughts,
making it all so negative and angsty.
perhaps its because im angsty by nature, so im pretty easily irritated.
and i mean its really by little things i can get all so angsty and pekchek

how rike that.
sushi on friday, sushi on friday. wiv jiahui.
prawning on fri night, prawning on fri night (hopefully). with cousins.

Me shall not be angsty and shall go to sleep.
goodnight.lovelove.

500th.

2009-04-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Depressing to be in school on wednesday for lessons without any friends :(

damn depressing right. lucky for peeps doing fyp in school.
HUAT AH NOOB. love you lah.

Java is starting to show its difficulties again,
i hope im not gona be beaten by it,
I WANA EXCEL!

today is an emo emo lonely loner day. :(
hope tmr would be BETTER :D

;D

2009-04-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

OH HI. you might have noticed the change in my heading. became my name. HAHA.
im bored nw, waiting for miss choo jiahui to finish working & close shop.
BTW, im at FEP & she's at bugis. we're meeting at dhoby ghaut to go kovan for tau huay. TEEHEE.
shit. damn bored. the shops around me are all closed/closing. im stuck surfing away on the net.
since im so bored. some random points.

i kinda dread working nowadays boring!
1 week of school had passed! so far so goooood! :D
im left wiv only $1.xx in my wallet nw -.-
i miss meeting my friends & rotting all day like how we always do during the holidays.
i wana go prawning leh!
Tday's my grandpa bday & no one tell me until when im already at work.
10th may is celebration for damien's first bday !!!!!
I STILL HAVEN DO HIS BDAY PRESENT OMGSXZS
i think im stil kinda loner.
oh its the 499th post before i forget. yipee!
I MISS MY SEXYS. ikea for meatball/salmon nextweek! :D
money no enough lehhhhhhhhh how.
wearing shoe to school suckszxzs
i think i secretly likes pink. no, not light princessy pink, but HOT PINK! HAHA
N97 is hot.
jogging starts next week !
jerlynn might wana make me another tiramisu, PLEASE? lol
hope all the horrible ppl in the world dies.
NEEDA GET HDD ASAP. laptops' laggin like nobody's business.
WHY HADNT MS CHOO CALL!?
i just texted her asking if she've died in the shop -.-
Darie just told me she name her first prawn that she prawned, Nathan -.-
she just replied that she's done & coming out alr, so i must stop this points.
but i like cant stop.
OKAYBYE.
OMG. FEP IS PLAYING STAR AWARDS. HAHAHAHHAA

okaybyebyebye

2009-04-24T23:02:00.013+08:00

JACQ's 20th Celebration on.. 24th FEB :D

Ultra late post.

i think me & py were too bored. HA. we were at jacq's hse wiv jon at like evening when jacq is home at only 11pm ?

then came the idea of buying balloons and flooding her room wiv it.

we played, we drew, we threw, we kick. wiv the balloons of cus.

we practically slacked in her room. OH YA, filmed unglam vids of everyone if i didnt rmb wrgly, lol.

stilll bored, and posing. LOL!

JACQ, SEE WE SO FREE WAITING FOR UUUUU.

BAKED BY YOURS TRULY. :D wiv help from my aunt too! :)

a picture to show that it was me WHO BAKED IT. HOHOHO

She wants to steal the limelight. TSK. anw we were hiding bcus we receive a call saying jacq is downstairs and coming up now, so we kinda like " DISPERSE " from jacq's room and shut her door and hid in the other rooms. HAHA

She was urgent for toilet and went in to her mom's bedroom where deb py & hz was hiding,

when she dump her handbag on the bed, they shouted happy birthday and we all ran to the room & SAW HER WIV THIS REACTION. THAT FACE LASTED ABT 5 MINS I THINK. lol

Johnne bringing in the cake :D

told'ya the face was there for at least 5mins. LOL!

we were damn happy cus we make her cry every birthday. HAHA look at that look on the 3 of their face!!!

NICE CAKE RIGHT? I KNW I KNW.

then we videocalled Yingrui who is in Brisbane to sing her a bday song ALTOGETHER.

SEEEE, that crying look is still there. shameshame jacq! LOL

Finally a happy face :)

SEEEEE, cry again. burden right. lol

Showing off the cake again. damn nice lah.

stil videocalling. walao. vid call exp okay! seee its my phone! LOL

finaalyy seettle down to make a wish,

and blow the cake.

she keep talking and talking and talking.

cut cake loh! :D

THEN, we ask her to go to her room and see what's wrong,

and she found a bottle left over from huiqun. HAHAHA.

seeee! birthday also wan to scold ppl. burden.

she saw the mess !

loooking through the balloons we drew on.

I REMEMBER THE WHITE ONE IS MINE! :D

FINALLY SHE FOUND HER POISON LIPS!

Go bck living continue cut cake & TALK TALK TALK.

ANW, she kept complainting how sad she was when she was on the way home and the radio playing emo songs and none of us giving her a birthday call. neither did we call her to say the plan for her bday. LOL.

then she brought the laptop out & we webcam wiv Yingrui !!

after cutting and finishing the cake, we went bck to her room i think.

Cus the following pictures are taken in the room! HAHA

Cus yingrui's in Brisbane, thats the only way to take picture wiv her. HAHAHAHAHA.

Then we continue to take on our own. lol

Damn typical to hve a NOT-EVERYONE-ARD-GRP-PIC. when can we hve a FULL ONE!? lol

ANYWAY, she wanted everyone to kiss her, so her mom starts first. HAHAHA

we're all SIAM-ing who to go first.

End up Huizhi first cus they're like BFF since forever? LOL!

1st try fail, 2nd try nw.

WEAK LEH, 3rd try then okay. waste our time hor huizhi. lol!

Peiying.

Debra.

Huiqun.

Yuwen.ME.

Lastly, Johnne. HE KISS HEAD CUS HE SCARE PPL MISTAKEN. BURDEN LEH HOR.

ya, thats the end. videos shall stay in private. only me & us wil knw. HAHA.

kenneth & joanna didnt make it. but hope next birthdays everyone wil be around okay! :D

WOW. finally done. spent like 2-3hours. omg. jacq better cry now and say ure touched. LOL!

pop lock and drop it.

2009-04-23T01:52:00.002+08:00

I think i need to make some changes to the outlook of my blog.
new blogskin? nah, waste time effort. perhaps just change some colors here and there. hahaha!
ANYWAYYSSSSSS,

NO ONE'S READING MY BLOG ALR. omg.
nehmind. im stil gona be in my own world. procrastinating the pictures. HAHAHA
ALOT OF MONTHS DUE. omg.

anwwww. ITS THE FIRST TIME I FEEL SO HAPPY IN JAVA CLASS. TEEHEE.
anwwwwwwwwwww... its 1.53am and i need to be awake by 7am for my 9.15am class.
hope its gona be good.

ANWWWWWWWWWWW. Happy Birthday Nooob Jolene AKA Minghui & ChunXuan.

annwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. year 3 stil kinda suck as its so hard to meet up wiv people with that pathetic amount of breaktime.
okaybye. me go sleep alr. lovelove.

screwed

2009-04-18T01:58:00.003+08:00

EVERYTHING FUCKING THING IS SO SCREWED, my life, work, school, friends, my laptop, EVERY FUCKING THING IS GIVING ME PROBLEM.

just fuck it lah. irritating shit.

2009-04-16T23:30:00.002+08:00

things to do !!

Trim my brows!
buy innerbeautywear. hahahaha i'll explain!
buy clothes.
find new bag
enjoy this very last few days of holidays.
stop procrastinating my blogposts of pictures. HAHAHA
meet cheese - i miss u pie.
change my mobileeee.

hi. regarding point no.2, MY MUM PUT MY BRA INTO THE WASHING MACHINE & one side of the metal broke, the other bend. KNS leh. omg. she didnt do it on purpose lah, but walao, needa buy. cheese, lets go la senza.

ANW, point3 also related, the washing machine spoil my teeshirt. tsk. irritating rightxzs.
okie bye. dont knw what to update alr.

omg my year 3 school life is startin. 5days week(DON'T ASK), FYP, chiong CE pts. god bless me

2009-04-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

shit.
the loner-emo period seems to be creeping in............

sorrry.

O.o

2009-04-07T19:15:00.003+08:00

I NEED EXTERNAL HARD DISK, omg.

My folders are bursting wiv pictures and my space on my laptop arent enough. i've 7000++pictures in the folders, not adding those on desktop & other folders.

click to enlarge.
HELLO. damien very nong nver appear on my blog liao.

here's two!

he vehli sad cus i didnt wan to give him my camera pouch. so jian right. use crying to win. tsk.

very happy playing wiv a metal tin, which he later dump into my bag without me knwing & him remembering. Lol.

Sexys - Henderson wave

2009-04-06T02:02:00.010+08:00

HENDERSON WAVE WITH MY SEXYS :D

21st March 09

was wrking before that, thanks to cheeseypie that i can take half day off to go out & enjoy wiv them! :D lub u pie.

the rainbow was damn chio we had to capture it down, me & jo was trying to take the US+Rainbow shot, but FAILED.

so i travelled down from fep to vivo to meet them! damn chio right, hz & jo like tourist.

kenneth trying very hard. i took quite afew before i manage this "catch-the-rainbow" shot. LOL!

when vivo turns dark. actually it was purpishly dark, not darkblue-dark. loll watever! i like to admire the colors of the skyyy!

we waited damnnnn long for that darn bus which was frigging crowded, and we missed our stop cus kenn couldnt recognise & we had to take cabs there in the end -.- burden.

the long flight of stairs we climbed. IT WAS FRIGGIN' TIRING I SWEAR. omg.

we reach halfway! :D

REACHED! damn tourist lah we.

actually i feel that other than the design, nothing is fantastic, mayb we went at a wrong time, shld hve went on sunset/rise, would be gorgeous sight!

say hi to my complicating partner.

they burden.

they ultra-burden.

they complicating here & there.

see. burden!

i think im the most faithful cus i only burden wiv her. HAHAHHAA

seee again. scandals.

py mentioned in fb that this is the normal picture after all those r-rated ones. LOL!

tryin-to-be-next-top-model.

burden. use my cam to camwhore.

SEEEE. act one loving family. HAHAHAA

again & again.

HAISXZS

the rest of us playing daidee or something.

kenneth was the loser he had to forfeit. he had to do somersault or somthing.

ben giving out the cards. kenn why u look so happy !?

i dono what i was doing. & OMG, MY EYEBAGS. shiat.

hi again.

lovelove.

i love u, u love me, we're happy family.

SEEE camwhore again.

we've red nails !!!!!

OHOHOHOH~

seriously i dont knw what captions to add anymore. lOL!

okie. jo was doing her forfeit & LOOK AT THAT WOMAN! HAHA. she was looking at her becus she was jumping on invisible hopscotch. HAHAHAHA

we were bored. i was scared of forfeit so i ran away. jacq was feeling lazy.

forfeit do sibei long. HAHA

she is the camwhore of the grp. non-stop!

hi Mr J.

AWWW SO SWEET. LOVELOVE

yehhhhhhhhh . one entry cleared offf. am sick at home trying to recover and have nothing to do, so i see how long i can be sick & i'll try to post out the post okay! not in order alr. cus i LAZY.
stil in line is genting, jacq bday, aaron bday, bowen "reunion", botanic garden

and, LOTS OF DAMIEN!!! LOLOL!

so, stay tuneedddd :D lovelove.

shitholes

2009-04-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

cust. A - HELLO! CAN I KNW HOW MUCH IS THIS DRESS ?
ME - $130 aft. discount.
cust. A - WHY so expensive, that boy(myboss) Give me very cheap know, he sell me dress only $100.

ME thinking impossible, after wrking for so long in this shop, the only hundred bucks dresses are either from 74738384years ago or it was sales item.

me - oh, we dont have $100 dresses uh, all are $120, $130, the least also $110.

cust. A - no no no no, the boy give me hundred, u call him, he sure give me hundred.

ME, thinking again, she think she big shot or those damn-regular-customer meh., i nver even see her before.

so i called my boss, and ask, and i ask him to talk to her instead of me rejecting her of the $100 thingy.

cust. A on phone wiv boss - nono, that time u give me hundred dollars, now can lah, 2 for $200, can lah. *keeps on asking for 100$ each".

cust.A then hands the phone over to me and walks off.

WHAT THE FUCK. she is stepping on gucci heels & she hav no money for that 2dresses? and its only a mere difference of $10-$20. omg. disgrace to her country.

BTW, she look like those auntie who overdid her lip-filling and her rhinoplasty most prolly failed, resulting her, looking like FEMALE version of michael jackson. ZOMG. disgusting shit. no, not chinese.

*****************************************************************

cust.B - oh, he's not ard? (referring to my boss)

me - oh , nope, he went overseas to get stocks alr, will be back on thurs.

cust.B tries on few dresses/tops, she looks nice in it, and i can see she WANTS to get it, but.

cust.B - i think i'll wait for him to come back and then buy from him instead.

me - (cursing in my mind)okay, sure :), byebye, see you ard.

WHY DO THEY HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIM TO BE ARD THEN CAN BUY HUH?!
WANT HIM TO SEE UR TITS OR SOMETHING? WAH. SIBEI DULAN. say 1 piece alr, stil wana risk, diedie wan to buy from him.

****************************************************************

cust. A to Z ( means everyone )

cust A to Z - why you charge so expensive one.... ur boss always give us low price knw..

ME THINKING fuck, i see the sales book, he sell every higher price than me lor. ZOMG.

ME - oh, no lah, same one ma. we all sell same price, *explains our shop way of working*

cust. A to Z - okay lor, lazy to argue wiv u/ nevermind then, i wait for him to come back.

FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS. Arghhh.
okay bye. enough of ranting liao.

tag replies. :D

2009-03-31T15:01:00.002+08:00

johnne & huizhi - MORE OF YOUR FACES COMING UPPPPP~

haichoon - heyhey! blog more aite :D

wawa - wow. how did u find ur way here. alright wil link you! :D

deb - hi, ilove you. so do i hve to hope u make ur way to zw's place mre often so u can tag me mre? LOLOL!! u come my hse see damien lah hor. LOL!

greg - me shyyy. next time okie. LOL!

zarifah - EHHH! i thot i've ur link all along eh. sorlee. i'll link u up sooon okies! :D MISS YOU TOOO, busy working? or schoooling ?

hopeless persistent brat.

2009-03-31T14:49:00.004+08:00

Hi, dont understand why some people are just doesnt feel that they're harassing people since these people don't want to stay in any form of contact wiv her anymore. i think its not misunderstanding because she've not grown out of what she is since dono-hw-many-years-ago.

and calling/texting/msn-ing from one friend to another, tooo free uh, or too desperate to get that number for u to call and cry to ? seriously i think its the biggest joke i've seen lah, as in its been SO NONGNONG AGO and suddenly appears again, always askin for number, always wanting to borrow money, always lying. omg.

PLEASE GROW UP WIL YOU LITTLE GIRL :D

*// no names applied on, just she she she, please dont think too much im talking about you okey, maybe the above paragraph is just a paragraph of words squeezed out from my not-so-likable-mind/brain. TEEEHEEE! :D

2009-03-22T20:51:00.003+08:00

There's so many times i want to just come in here(blogger's create page) and rant on and on, share my joy & sadness, happiness & disappointment or WHATEVER im feeeling but just cant.

I keep feeling it isn't the correct platform for me to voice things out. Isit just me or isit everyone? I've ALOT to say but its so hard to phrase them into sentence and i think sometimes, i dont wan too much comments on what im trying to saying.im just wana give a word vomit of how im feeling but scare of the comment received. wha so pekchek.

lifes' pretty mundane, i alr forgot how i spent last 2months of my holiday. all i could rmb was working, sleeping, slacking ard, hanging out with friends. nothing practical. tsktsk.
just went henderson wave ytd with the sexys, and deb i hope ure fine. tanhuikhoon, idont knw where you died to again.

sorry johnne boy, cant join you guys to club, am so worn out, literally worn out. omg. i just feel like falling into coma and not wake up to face all these stupid troubles or whatsoever.

okaybye. at work now. waiting for time to pass.
lovelove to alll :D

Yingrui -

2009-03-18T16:14:00.007+08:00

THE DAY YINGRUI FLEW TO BRISBANE.

Feb 16th 2009

the scene could just linger on like how it does on lianya's departure too.

but, ITS OKAY. both of them are coming bck SOOON :D

on train towards Changi airport.

Grp picturessssss .

we gave her this notebook thing we handmade, awww wo men hen hao. HAHAHA

some comments made and all laughed? LOL

another grp pic! :D

wha. i think she's laughing at kenn's art.

opening the magical book " My Existence O.O "

grp pic tgt with ppl who went to send her off.

ANOTHER SEXYS, without tanhuikhoon anw. SHE CAME ONLY WHEN YINGRUI HAS ENTERED THE GATE! burden!.

dont knw if this thing would work. its actually a gif. file. HA

after we send her off with buckets of tears and mucus(EXAGGERATING), vincent came to drive us back to amk ! Lorry rides are damn fun with them man. xcept the part whre huizhi's hair keep hitting me.

seee deb so excited. HAHAHA

then at amk, we took budget 'neoprints'.

Its was kenn's idea of taking pictures with camera IN a neoprint machine. sibei budget.

HAHAHAHA. i finallly updated :D WEEEWOOO. will continue okay. stil hab genting, jacq's bday, aaron's bday and i dont knw what. i seem to hve alot of pictures. okaybye.

DABIAN !!!

2009-03-05T17:04:00.005+08:00

Sorry, but this post lis filled with this cute little thing/boy!! okay lah, only 5 . HAHA

below are pictures when i was not working/out and accompanying him! :D

see the cross-thingy at his chest area? its actually a suspender, just that its too long and kept dropping off, so i cross it . HAHA SO CUTE THE FACE.

my mom loveesss to buy large clothing for him becus she feel that kids grow very fast.

SEEEE! big until he can wear as a jumper or something.

he was asking for ppl to carry him. HAHA

he was too noisy i had to bring him into the room where the floor have mattresses then let him crawl ard himself. HAAAAA. enjoying himself eh.

and he LOVE to bang on the stupid closet. HAAA.

OKAYBYE!

Jiahui-filled.

2009-02-28T06:21:00.009+08:00

Hi people, im clearing my pictures to post it, so today's post would be filled with HER face.LOL

just return home from a voiddeck near our place and saw a knn-shocking-short-cat-fight, and as usual, just nua our time away, and look, we do it everywhere anytime,

even on CNY day 1. evidence below. LOL

we finish visiting our relatives and our last stop were the same, so we met up at khatib area. lol.

the below pictures was another rotting session near our place,again, to pass her the bday present i bought for her, and well, to just rot our chu xi (CNY eve) away~ HAHA

Oh, happy bday once again. HA.
we started off looking normal, then started getting cranky, guess we were too bored. LOL!!

be.very.afraid.

like siaocharbo

vehli happy of the present right!

Then, we went for klunch on........... i forgotten when. well, just pictures! HA

she had a hard time bugging me to wake up. LOL!

hey you dont take, me singing!

with the coolio fisheye thingy~

there;s quite afew black&white(say : grey) picturess. cus we were testing out the functions !

wow vehli nice!

SHY NEH.

note : the long index fingernail. and the nail art. CHIO RIGHT. LOL okay, nehmind, was trying out the red color function thingy and my wallet was the only red item i've other than my nails. LOL!!

awww, so sweet. we finally figure out the stupid function. HAHAA

and we went out afew times last few weeks but i think we hate each other so much we didnt take pictures tgt. lemme recall, accompanied her for job interview and we went to furnish ourselves ( read : mani&pedi + haircut ). yes! damn cheap nail painting pls....... lets go again! then lunch, then PS for daiso then, i kinda forgot. oh, she ditched to meet her bf and i had to bus home alone. SAD. HAHA.

then, we went ikea ytd, or ytd's ytd. bought lotsa stuffs for just ten bucks, thanks to the ikea sale, yea, no pictures again, guess to sick of each other. HAHAHA.

and i think not much rotting session recently cus she thought i died, but i was just busy baking my friend's JACQ.Chung's bday cake ma! how can you assume im dead! TSKTSK.

okayokay, pictures up slowly okay, so be patient. im gona sleep. its 7 in the morning now, im frigging tired, my back-waist-area hurts alot bcus apparently, aaron & ying forced me to keep joggin instead of my usual walk+run. LOL!

okay bye. :D